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Nightmares QUESTION from Shirley December 26, 2000 Sorry for the rather lengthy question but I need your advice.
Several month ago I attended a mission - healing and deliverance - given by an exorcism Priest who I believe is extremely devoted to the Holy Eucharist, the Holy Father and the teachings of the Catholic church.
I had attended one other mission previously in 1999 at which time I felt that I had been helped greatly from mental anguish - constant impure thoughts - terrible - too terrible to discuss with anyone, even a Priest. These thoughts plagued me all the time - in church, at work, while trying to pray, at Adoration. I felt physically sick from them and found it very hard to sleep.
This anguish which I had been suffering from, came back later but not as strongly as before.
Approximately 3 months after hearing this Priest again, I experienced a horrible nightmare. I was in the midst of a crowd of people outside in a large open field. We were under a canopy of some sort and were watching a procession of Priests. One Priest was carrying the most Blessed Sacrament in the Monstrance but at the head of the procession and this Priest who I will call Father M was being carried on some sort of a pedestal object several feet behind. He seemed to be looking for me in the crowd. I did not want to be seen and kept hiding amongst the people. He found me and approached me and started to pray over me. As he did, I felt a great heat within my body and I took off running as I could not stand to be touched by him. I kept running and running. I passed what appeared to be a small lake and started running over a bridge. I noticed that a bracelet that I was wearing on my right arm with a medal of Padre Pio had fallen off and as I assumed that it had fallen in the water, I ran back to the edge of the embankment to retrieve it. I plunged my hand down into the water and was able to get the medal only. I then started to run back across the bridge when I was immediately confronted by two huge salivating black dogs snarling and growling at me. (They looked just like Rotweillers). As long as I live I will never forget what they looked like. The hate in their eyes I cannot describe. I started to scream Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, and Father M came running and started praying over me again. He said You are full of worms and garbage and you need to be released.
My nightmare ended here. I call it a nightmare because I dream in colour and this was one dream that left me absolutely distrought. I don't particularily like to think of myself as being garbage especially to God.
Do you have any idea as to what this could mean?
Thank you and may God bless you!
ANSWER by John-Paul Ignatius, O.L.S.M. on January 28, 2001 Dear Mrs. Shirley:
Well, first of all I would like to encourage you to discuss your secret thoughts with your confessor no matter how bad you believe these thoughts to be. Bringing these thigns to Confession can help to heal them. Confession is a healing sacrament too. But you cannot be healed from these thoughts if you keep them to yourselve. Think a moment about who has the motivation to keep you from discussing these thoughts with your confessor? Is it God? No. God want you to lay your burdens down in confession to allow Him to forgive you and heal you. Please allow God to heal you through the sacrament of confession.
As for the dream, it may be just a dream caused by the anxieties you feel about yourself. If there is any truth to the dream, that you need to be released, then that is what the Sacraments are for. Notice you said that the Father said you are full of worms and garbage.... He did not say you WERE garbage.
We all have some worms and garbage on our souls. Get rid of it. Take it to Jesus in adoration of the Blessed Sacrament, in the Eucharist, and in confession. It is through these devotions and sacraments that we may find healing.
We will be praying for you.
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